anxiety, chronic pain, Mental Health, not giving up, perseverance, update

More Changes

Having issues with anxiety and learning disorders can be hard. For me, I take a while to settle on majors because I do not know which kinds of classes I can handle. I thought a lot about my major and how hard it is for me to take in these details just for the biology class. I love it, but my brain cannot handle reading and processing the information. I realized that for me, I’d want more of a hands-on approach.

Because of these reasons, I have gone back to English as a major. I still want to pursue some knowledge of medicine and first aid since it intrigues me, and it is a wonderful thing to have. However, if I wanted to, I will go for a Medical Assistant Associate degree after I graduate if I still want to pursue it. However, if I fall in love with something else and find another career with my degree, I will go for either a first responder course or a wilderness first responder course. Either way, I think it’s a good thing to know in any situation.

Posts

So, for the last three weeks, I had been posting twice a week. Once with old discussion posts and then excerpts from the book I am writing. I will try to keep up with that, but It was initially because I was getting very anxious about my classes and work. That is why they were scheduled posts. Again, my blogs will comprise multiple things since I am so passionate about various subjects. I will try to make weekly updates about the story I am working on, but lately, I could not work on it.

I also have some “prepper” projects I am working on and my views on certain parts of that aspect and community. I will never write negativity because I love to spread positivity. I am also working on finally moving out with my partner, so I will post about that. Thank you again for liking and following my blog to all who have.

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Writing Fiction Again

Holidays are depressing when you don’t feel as if they love as much you as you want to be. I’ve been in a rut these past weeks which is why I could not write much anymore. However, now I’ve decided that I need to write again. Make money instead of being stuck in my room depressed because of lack of work. I love my job, but the lack of continuous hours hurts. I need to get out of here. This is why I’ve decided to focus on writing and fiction again.

Side Jobs

I will start my search for side jobs that will help me move. My partner and I are looking at apartments so we can move to get me out of this toxic environment. I will do my best to update my blog more often once again.

Fiction

Since I enjoy writing fiction the most, I have decided that I will start by using the self-publishing platform on Amazon to publish novellas. This will allow me to keep the rights of the work so that once I am doing the series of novellas, I can put them in a larger book. I will base the novellas off the 1001 Arabian Nights.

Royal Vizier Diaries

They will be a series of stories through the eyes of Jafar. He begins his journey as the unhappy son to the Royal Vizier to a Sultan in Ancient Morocco. He is only thirteen when he explores his sexuality and romance with his personal servant Kassim which only ends in tragedy.

This is just the beginning of the boy’s long journey into finding out who he really is and the mysterious power that he has been given. It is meant to be an adult fantasy fiction work with homosexual relationships along with heterosexual. There is a lot of death and sex involved along with hard themes that will include trigger warnings at the beginning of those chapters.

Stories

This is one story in my mind which is close to my heart which is why I want to get it out in the open. Even with the tough themes, I will attempt to make sure that those specific chapters can be skipped if needed without losing story elements. I will add parts of the novellas as blog posts once a week for now on, and once I publish the first novella, I will advertise it here as much as I can.

I will also possibly work on some short stories I might try to get published in small magazines and such. I have already sent my first story off to Chicken Soup for the Soul so I hope that this can start my publications. I hope that you all keep following me and my journey. Thank you for all the support.

jobs, Mental Health, perseverance, update

New Lease on Life

Hello everyone. It has been a while since I had posted a blog post. The Mercury Retrograde hit me hard back then. I had such an emotional rollercoaster with my anxiety extremely heightened and my desperate search for a job. I finally have a job, and I am much happier just being out of the house more. I’ve also been able to visit my partner is about an hour away from me by train now.

I’ve been thinking about my blog, and I’ve noticed that it is hard for me to stick to a subject. That is the reason I turned this into a multi-subject blog. Just me being me. My main issue is finding topics to write about for my blog. I decided that I want this blog to be about my philosophy, some of my spirituality, prepper stuff, and wellness stuff.

Healthcare

I had a lot to think about over the weeks I’ve been away. One of those things is a decision I’ve made. A big one. I decided that instead of English; I have changed my major to Healthcare Information Management. The subject had always fascinated me. Since I have issues with physical work, I figured this would help me in my fight for independence.

I also now work as a receptionist for an Independent Living and Personal Care community. Thanks to this experience, I will learn the skills I need in the field and hopefully work in the care center as well at some point.

I will also take classes for Medical Assistant after I finish. I do not want to work as one full time, but I figured that it would make me even more employable if I had some physical skills. I can need these skills in an office if there is a shortage of staff or something. I also hope to become an Emergency Medical Responder or even an EMT. These would be for emergencies only and not a career decision for me. I enjoy being prepared and find the field fascinating.

I will model the next few posts after discussion posts and my final project from my Philosophy class. After that, I hope to do more. I hope you all have a great day!

Consistency in Medication
anxiety, chronic pain, Disabilities, Mental Health, update, wellness

Consistency in Medication (update)

In the last blog entry, consistency in medication is essential for wellness. I have not been taking CBD every morning. Unfortunately, this has made my mood and anxiety worse than usual.

My emotions were off and on for a few days or weeks. I realized that it was because I did not take my tincture every morning. I ended up crying in fits over small things that worried me and feelings of uselessness and heartache. Once I could talk this out with my partner, I realized what was going on. CBD helps me so much with my anxiety that as long as I take it regularly, I do not need prescription medication for it.

The fact that I figured out that the issue was my lack in the consistency in medication, only explains why it is so important. Since I am also sensitive to the energies of the moon and things like that, keeping a constant calm is essential. If my energy is out of whack, they will amplify those emotions. For example, the blood moon is coming up, and the change in the magnetic pull of the Earth is happening. Thanks to these instances, if I do not keep my essence calm and contained, I will lash out or have various anxiety attacks.

Since I have studied and done exercises from The Path of Energy, have given me the ability to sense these energies and have a better understanding of the world around me. I love this book and highly recommend it to anyone. Not only does working with chakras can help you with spirituality, but it can help you focus on the things important in life.