The Hobbit and Psychology

I have always been a fan of psychology. Though, for me it’s more of the theory behind it and not the scientific part or even the memorization of terms or anything. Since I write fantasy and enjoy writing for villains the most, I feel like it’s fascinating to figure out how and why a villain (or hero for that matter) does what they do. This is why my favorite part of character development is getting inside the head of the character. 

Since psychoanalytic theory focuses on Freudian psychology, I am going to use an example from The Hobbit by J.R.R. Tolkien. I think an interesting way to look at it is through different races and the character of Gandalf to show the ID, Ego, and Superego. 

Dwarves as the Id

As a fan of the elven race, rather than the dwarf, (sorry dwarves!) I feel as though the race of Dwarves could be used to show the Id of the story. They are naturally brash, and intake a lot of food and wine. This is shown in the very first chapter where the entire band of Dwarves come to poor Bilbo’s home and take their fill of food and wine. They also have a nasty temper.

In chapter 17 specifically, “The Clouds Burst”, Thorin becomes greedy and insists that he take the Arkenstone for himself. When he finds out that Bilbo had given the stone to Bard, Thorin lunged at him with anger that could be seen as animalistic.

Hobbits as the Ego

For the race of hobbits, I feel like they can be described as the Ego of the story. Hobbits are very social creatures and always care about what others think.

“This hobbit was a very well-to-do hobbit, and his name was Baggins. The Bagginses had lived in a neighborhood of The Hill for a time out of mind, and people considered them very respectable, not only because they were rich, but also because they never had any adventures or did anything unexpected: you could tell what a Baggins would say on any question without the bother of asking him,” (Tolkien 3).

This passage could explain what the hobbit society deems socially acceptable. In this case, society favors those who are not only rich, but keep to their community and never do anything out of the ordinary or spontaneous. 

Gandalf as the Superego

I feel as though in some ways Gandalf the Grey can be seen as the Superego. Throughout this story and that of The Lord of the Rings, Gandalf is used to guide the company throughout their adventures and at times acts as a conscience. However, when he goes his own way is usually when things go wrong.

A scene when they arrive at the edge of an Elvish village of Mirkwood is an example of Gandalf trying to guide the dwarf King Thorin before he takes off to leave them on their own for a little while. “The dwarves were inclined to grumble at this, but the wizard told them they were fools. ‘Beorn is not as far off as you seem to think, and you had better keep your promises anyway, for he is a bad enemy. Mr. Baggins’ eyes are sharper than yours, if you have not seen each night after dark a great bear is going with us or sitting far off in the moon watching our camps. Not only to guard you and guide you, but to keep an eye on the ponies too. Beorn may be your friend, but he loves his animals and his children. You do not guess what kindness he has shown you in letting dwarves ride them so far and so fast, nor what would happen to you, if you tried to take them into the forest,’” (Tolkien 124-125).

Gandalf can be seen as the Superego or conscience trying to talk sense into Thorin by warning him that there will be consequences to actions if he is not careful. Perhaps this could be a foreshadow of how Thorin becomes later on.

Psychology and Middle Earth

I could honestly make an entire paper or blog article on using the Id, Ego, and Superego throughout the Hobbit. I think the advantages of using this theory is that not only can you use it to see beyond the surface of characters or races, but also to flesh out different parts of the story and what the author might be thinking with each. I think there are so many things you can do with literature in writing or reading, especially with the theories behind psychology. that it is very flexible for anyone to use for any type of literary work or other stories.

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Queer Theory and the Fairy Accurate Connections

Last session of classes had to do with the concepts of Literary Theory. Some weeks were harder than others to write the weekly discussion posts. However, I want to start the New Year by sharing some of my favorite posts. The first one has to do with Queer Theory and it’s connection to Good Omens.

Good Omens is both a novel made by Terry Pratchett and Neil Gaiman as well as an Amazon Prime only TV series written by Neil Gaiman. As someone who is a fan and a pan-sexual non-binary trans individual, the characters in this story really made me feel like I could relate. Neil Gaiman even admitted that the tale of Aziraphale and Crowley is a “love story.” 

Love Between Heaven and Hell

I found an article from The Geekary where they write about a Twitter post Neil had written to a fan. “I wouldn’t exclude the ideas that they are ace, or aromatic, or trans. They are an angel and a demon, not as make humans, per the book. Occult/Ethereal beings don’t have sexes, something we tried to reflect in the casting. Whatever Crowley and Aziraphale are, it’s a love story,” (Wilson).

Angels and demons do not have a gender, therefore it did not exactly matter how they dressed, behaved, or what hobbies they had. After all, Crowley both took care of plants which used to be a woman’s hobby and loved his Bentley dearly to the point (spoilers here) he “needed a moment” when it blew up. Obviously the car thing is because most people associate men with cars.

A Welcoming Fanbase

Non-binary fans and cosplayers far and wide find themselves able to truly show their real selves when connecting with the characters. Because of the character Crowley in particular, I relate to it. 

“Our small, non-binary group had been contemplating the vagaries of Crowley’s behavior in Good Omens for the last month. We had noticed he wears what appears to be feminine garb not only in the nanny scene but also at the crucifixion when there was no way it could be taken as a joke. The cosplayers in our group had noted that even modern Crowley was clearly wearing a woman’s scarf, glasses, vest, and tight pants to accent the more traditional masculine appearance, as if even if presenting masculine, he wasn’t quite comfortable settling into a binary gender role,” (Casillas). 

Thousands Years of Love

The relationship between the angel Aziraphel and the “not nice” demon Crowley throughout the series has always seemed like an old married couple. They hung out together, bickered, looked out for each other. Crowley even got drunk and mourned Aziraphel when he had thought he had been killed.

It was hard to pick out one scene to really prove my points. This is what I chose to do so, “Aziraphel: You know, Crowley, I’ve always said that, deep down, you are quite a nice… Crowley interrupts by grabbing him by the collar. Crowley: Just shut it! I’m a demon. I’m not nice. I’m never nice. Nice is a four letter word I will not…” (Gaiman 147).

Queer Theory and the Conclusion

Since this story is based off of modern day, I feel like it explains just how open most of the world is now about sexuality, gender, and roles committed to gender. Though I feel that the series and book would not be so accepted if the characters were all human rather than not human. If the love story of an angel and a demon were of two men or two women, or two non-binary people, I feel like it would get backlash from a lot of the “status quo.” I think that theories such as Queer Theory is important for society to understand each other more.

Works Cited

Casillas, Caspian. “‘Good Omens’ Radical Take on Non-Binary Representation.” The Geekiary, 15 Aug. 2019, https://thegeekiary.com/good-omens-radical-take-on-non-binary-representation/68751.

Gaiman, Neil. The Quite Nice and Fairly Accurate Good Omens Script Book. Headline, 2019.

Wilson, Angel. “Neil Gaiman Calls ‘Good Omens’ a ‘Love Story.’” The Geekiary, 11 June 2019, https://thegeekiary.com/neil-gaiman-calls-good-omens-a-love-story/65986.


Moving Options

Living in a place where you are always afraid to say the wrong thing is difficult. It is even more so when the person you are afraid to talk to is a family member. Someone who you are supposed to be close to.  Moving is my only way to escape

I hate that I am at the point where I need to move out to get into a better headspace. I have no one locally that I could move with and my significant other is worried we would rush things since we only started dating for a year so far. So what are the options I could do?

Moving to Another State

My friend Maria up in Connecticut has also been wanting to move out of her parent’s home. She offered to move with me and my friend Lucius offered to help me with a U-Haul since he loves driving. 

I love it up there. I feel as if the air is fresher, even if the winters are harsher. There are so much more wooded areas in proximity than there are here. I feel like where I live, I would need to drive to get to them. Since no one I know can teach me how to drive, I’d have to shell out about a thousand dollars just to learn and get my license. 

If I move up there, Maria will teach me how to drive and she understands how my anxiety works. 

Work vs School 

Working part-time as a student is hard enough. I tried out full-time status for this session just to see if I could handle it. I did so pretty well! The problem came when my supervisor left for a vacation and I ended up taking most of her shifts. I can handle the shifts, but getting schoolwork done on time required me to work early. 

I could handle it because I knew ahead of time what I needed to get done, mostly. However, if I work full-time hours along with weekend shifts, it is very difficult to do both at that status.

Full-time Work

My other option for moving out would be if a full-time position here where I work opened up that I could handle. Since I cannot do physical work, anything of that nature would be difficult for me full-time. I would need a position in an office setting. 

Getting certified in electronic medical records will be very helpful in helping me find a position either in that area where I work or somewhere else. If I was to get a full-time job, I could keep doing school half-time and move out. 

Financial pros and cons

Pros of CT


If I was to move up to Connecticut, there would be a lot to think about. I need to raise a good amount of funds before I leave just in case I cannot get a job right away or before I get there. I believe her mother works at a hospital, so I might find one through her. 


I also have about 1000 from student loans every two months. I will be using the money I get from that to pay for my certification class and to help save for moving out. 

If I chose Connecticut, I could easily find a full- or part-time position (hopefully) with the certification and receptionist experience. I could live off of a part-time position until I graduated.

Cons of CT

I would live very far from my family. Planes cost a fortune, and while they are less expensive, busses are chaotic when attempting to travel back and forth. I would have to plan my trips home in advance paying for Amtrak.

I would be also far away from my significant other. However, she enjoys traveling so she will to come up and see me. 

I could easily live off of my loan money as a full-time student and a part-time job. That means I have to either have money saved up or find a full-time position immediately after I graduate. Part-time would also mean I can keep my SNAP and Medicaid until I graduate. 

Pros of full-time here.

If I lived on my living around here, I would still be close to my family and significant other. However, I would not have to worry about roommates and I can eat what I need to.

I can save up as much as I can each month and buy what I want when I want to.


Cons of full-time here:

If I found a full-time job around here, it would mean that all the rent would be up to me. Most of my money would go towards rent and I would lose SNAP and Medicaid benefits. I would have to pay for those things on top of rent and utilities.

I have, in the past, went above budget on things and I was terrible with money. Living alone might make me so lonely that I would want to buy things to make me feel better. Even though I want a cat for emotional support, it would just be me and them only.

Without the option to graduate sooner, I would still in school for a long time instead of being free to live a successful life. The only way it could be successful is if I found someone who will help me get success.



There are a lot of cons with both, but it seems like living on my own might be harder on me. Few pros go to that idea. The only option I see that is best is to move up to CT and hope I find either a full-time or (mostly) part-time job.


I know it doesn’t sound ideal to work a part-time job. With my Fibromyalgia and other issues, I feel like personally; it is the best. Being reliant on SNAP is not ideal either, but it is only temporary. As a person with severe Chronic Illness and Generalized Anxiety, full-time work alongside full-time school is not an option I can handle. Either way, moving is a hard thing to do.


Long Awaited Update

Hello everyone, 

I apologize for not posting in so long. I had been in a bad place physically, emotionally, and mentally. I had not been taking CBD on a daily basis along with my multi-vitamin which caused my pain, fatigue, and anxiety to worsen and worsen. Now, I take 500mg of CBD oil every night and I make sure to remember my vitamin. 

The best news that happened in my absence is that I have finally been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. Now that I have the official diagnosis, I can get on the right medications so it can help me handle my symptoms better while I try my best. 

I know this post is a little short. I promise that I will be trying to post more often even if it is just a post from my classes. I am also going to be enrolling in a non-credit course at my old Community College for Electronic Medical Records certification. This way, it can help me in my employment endeavors.

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Everyday Carry

There are so many preppers out there that claim bug out bags and gear are the most important part of prepping. That is not always the case. I feel as though the first thing you need to do is to begin by preparing what you need for your everyday life. EDC is the term used to refer to everyday carry. EDC can be done in various ways, but the best way to start is to use the basics.

What is Everyday Carry Gear?

The best way to begin is to gather all the things you usually use when you leave the house for work, school, and other types of travel. Try to minimize all that you can even if it takes a few tries to rearrange things. Examples of these things would be a tablet and/or computer, phone, chargers, notepad and pens or pencils, possibly mints and/or gum, and your wallet. Naturally, if you smoke, a lighter with a pack of cigarettes could be added to your bag.

Next comes the “extended-outing” supplies. These things can include things you would need if you stayed out longer than expected. These would comprise food, water bottles, some hygiene products (those of the female sex might add feminine products), and any prescription or over-the-counter medication you would need. Finally, emergency supplies could range from a mini first aid kit to a mini survival kit.

Mini kits for EDC

As far as mini first aid kits go, the first thing to think of is any prescription or over-the-counter medications you use. In an emergency these items are essential.

Next, would be the bandages you can buy at any store. Whether you spend the money to buy a small set from a drugstore (the dollar store to save money) or even create your own, these kits are perfect for situations where you or someone else has a small or decent sized cut. With these bandages should be some antiseptic wipe or gel to disinfect the wounds and antibiotic treatment such as Neosporin or some generic brand.

As for mini-survival kits, keep it simple. Putting together something small is the best way to keep everything minimalistic. The simplest things to stay with you would be a lighter and/or matches if you don’t smoke, a folded-up sheet of aluminum foil (for cooking if needed), a tiny sewing kit, a cheap poncho, and some cordage such as para-cord or even shoelaces. You can find all of these things in a local Dollar Tree.

Some other things to add could be small and cheap multi-tools and emergency blankets. You can find these on Amazon and small organizers to help keep all of your everyday carry preps organized.

Special EDC

Depending on where you live or what you’re certified in or with, you can add other things to your EDC. If you get yourself certified in First Aid, or if you are a healthcare professional, additional items to your first aid kit could be added if desired such as a trauma kit. If you have a license to carry a pistol on you and you wish to bring one for protection, you may also add that to your prep. If you do not have a license or do not like guns but want to add security, you can add simple things such as pepper spray or, as long as you check out your state’s guidelines, insert a small knife or dagger.

Where to Start?

These are a few cheap recommendations to get started on your everyday carry. Amazon also has various bags that can be found depending on your everyday needs.

EDC pouch organizer- https://amzn.to/2Tg4CTd

Hard wallet with RFID- https://amzn.to/2DCtFuc

Set of emergency blankets- https://amzn.to/2COvym0

Wallet multitool- https://amzn.to/2G4Ky2f