Philosophy, spirituality, writing

“Evil is in the Eye of the Beholder”

The topic of “evil” is interesting to me. I love to write fiction, and my favorite thing to write for is the villain. Though through the years of attempting to develop the story, I love the most, I’ve realized “evil” is just a point of view. When one person thinks that murder (for example) is a sin, another may need to kill to survive an abuser. If all murder is wrong and evil, then why would the abused be forced to endure such abuse until they die themselves?

I was raised Catholic and was forced to go to Catholic school. I almost failed the “morality” class in high-school because I did not agree with almost everything I had learned. I knew in my heart being homosexual was not a sin, and neither was having sex before marriage. To me, it is all a natural thing and should not be condemned as “evil.” I did not know for sure at the time, but I ended up Pansexual, which means that I have no preference in gender or sex of a person… My current partner (and soulmate) is someone I fell for before I knew she was a female. I fell for her personality. How can something so natural be considered a sinful life?

To me, “evil” is doing something that hurts other or yourself knowing fully well what you are doing and doing it on purpose. If it is something used in defending yourself or another person or people it should NOT be considered evil. Instead it should be seen as it is. Defense.

As for “God,” my view is not the same as many. I believe that no religion is right or wrong. I believe all the gods exist in one or many various realms. I believe the Christian/Catholic/Jewish/etc God exists genderless in their own realm to watch over their followers. My personal pantheon involves Greek, Norse, Hindu, Egyptian, Lakota, and Japanese deities, (mostly Greek). I believe all the Greek (except maybe Hades) lives on Olympus. Hera is my matron while Poseidon is my patron gods. Ares shares me with my partner because he is my god-spouse (which means my astral body and soul is married to him on the celestial plane). I even have a few spirit guides such as Maui, Archangel Gabriel, and the animal spirits of sea dragon, cheetah, hawk, and crow. My belief is different because my feeling towards most of my pantheon is that they are like family to me rather than beings to be worshipped. Osirus and Hades in particular assist me in my journey of my various past lives.

While I believe all of this, I do not disbelieve in other people’s beliefs. My girlfriend’s roommate believes all the Gods exist as one being. I do not hate those who believe in other things, I simply believe something different than them. Coming back to the subject of evil however, I do believe that those who thrust their beliefs on others, act as if theirs is the only religion that matters, and those who kill for their faith is wrong and can be considered evil if they are doing things to hurt people either physically or mentally. I don’t think that evil is a matter of if God really exists, or if they allow it. The Universe, Spirit Guides, and Deities guide us and give us the free will to follow or not follow their teachings. I do not think it is fair to blame evil on the existence or non-existence of “God.” However, as I said before, evil can also be seen as simply a point of view.

As the quote goes, “Evil is in the Eye of the Beholder.”

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Mental Health, perseverance, Philosophy, spirituality

Free Will

I had spent many years in retail after obtaining an Associates Degree in General Studies. As my chronic pain condition (suspected Fibromyalgia) and Generalized Anxiety Disorder worsened it got harder and harder to handle it. I took an online course in freelance writing because I was so curious on if I was interested in this or not. At the time I realized that I was and enrolled in my local University, West Chester University of Pennsylvania. For two years I started to realize I could not handle commuting back and forth and upholding good grades full time so I switched to half-time.

I still struggled because of the long commutes, obligations from toxic friends who insisted on me giving them attention (I had finally gotten rid of them by now), and attempting to do work study along with classes. When I looked into SNHU I realized that this was honestly the easier way for me to learn. I have various learning disorders, and this program helps me in ways the other school could not. The program was better as well since I did not have to go through various language classes for an English degree.

Currently, I realized after attempting to do some freelance writing while I was in the market for a new job (which I finally achieved one) I realized that my love of writing was more-so on the casual pace. I love writing blogs and fictional stories, but the stress of attempting to find clients and such was just not for me. I had been able to get some experience in it, but I was not enjoying it like I thought I would. When I decided to go to Penn Foster alongside SNHU for Medical Administrative Assistant, I realized maybe I should get into the medical field. It had always interested me since I was a child. So, I am currently asking to change my major. I do not want to be a nurse or a doctor, but I do want to possibly work as a Medical Assistant (I’m not sure yet because of the physical demands), get EMS training (just for personal curiosity and want to help people in an emergency such as a natural disaster or something), etc. I want to start with the administrative level since a less physical job is perfect for my pain condition.

The reason I am sharing my story is because of this discussion topic. I did not have to go back to College. I could have just worked and worked until I was able to find something better. The reason I went is that I wanted to follow my dreams even if they are ever changing. English was not meant for me, but now I believe the medical field is. It interests me. When I was little I watched surgery shows. While my mother and Gram turned away, I was fascinated with the blood and how people were fixed up. Even the idea of doing sutures is interesting to me. (If I don’t end up going through EMS training I might get a training kit from Amazon just to see what to do. I won’t be the first to do it but if no one is around and its days or miles from help its good to know).

If I did not have “free will” I would have just done what my family wanted me to do and find some government job or live off of Social Security Disability after getting diagnoses (if that). I think that having free will or not having free will depends on the person. If someone does things because of their environment, because society says so, or because they don’t believe they are able to do anything else that no, they do not have free will. Someone brainwashed by friends, certain societies, even some extreme religious groups are not able to control their own actions. Stepping away from that and doing what “you” want and dream of is what gives free will. That is what I believe. Free will depends on your choices.

Philosophy, spirituality

Belief vs Knowledge

I titled this blog post after a discussion for my Philosophy class. Belief vs Knowledge.

I believe that both can be the two entirely different things or the same depending on your own personal teachings and experiences. For example, my belief is that there are other planes of existence that house various deities living together to help and guide humanity.

However, I do not have physical proof of this being possible. Spiritually, during my deep meditations and practice of astral projection, I believe I have traveled there in my astral form to converse with my personal gods. This shows that my knowledge and belief comes from what I see, feel, and experience during my meditations.

There is no physical proof that such a plane exists, so this “knowledge” is something that others might not believe or think of as “knowledge.”

Reincarnation

However, another way of showing my own belief versus knowledge is my belief in reincarnation. I believe that my soul enjoys being reincarnated. Because of that, I have had many past lives. I do not feel as if the past lives are separate from my soul but more of an extension.

The earliest Life I believe could have been on another plane or “planet” separate from Earth. This is not “known.” I have special memories, but it is still so fuzzy that there is no way to know it was real or just a figment of my imagination.

There is no personal proof other than shared memories from my current significant other. Past life memories can be tough to prove when there is no actual proof that it could be true. When memories spark from fantasy movies or video games, it makes you believe it could have been true, but it is so over the top that there is no proof that it is. 

Spiritual Paths

Just because I believe in these things as an Eclectic Pagan, does not mean that I think all the other religions do not exist. It is difficult to determine what is known to be true and what is believed to be accurate. I don’t believe any religion is right or wrong.

We all believe in something even if it is science. I think belief and knowledge are personal with things like philosophy, religion, and faith. 

Mental Health, perseverance, Philosophy, spirituality

Knowing

I think “knowing” the world and “knowing” math is different but also somewhat the same. Knowing math takes a lot of practice. For some, it takes only a week or two to understand it, but for me and my math disorder, it takes forever. 

I’m not saying I don’t know 2+2=4, but anything more complicated like multiplication and division confuses me. I get numbers, symbols, and letters mixed up continuously so my version of “knowing” math differs from someone who can do math quickly in their head. I cannot even do simple math without using my hands or a calculator.

The World

I think “knowing” the world is different only because of this case. We learn the world by taking it in similar to most people who can learn math quickly. But I think they are different because with math you have. Knowing the world is done in different ways.

Everyone is different and sees the world around them in different ways. That is why there are various political parties, religions, beliefs, etc. (I see religion and belief as separate things because not everyone has religion, but everyone has beliefs.)

Mathematics

With math, the answer is linear, when with personal “knowing” of the world and philosophy are different depending on the person. Religion and beliefs, for example, I believe no religion is right or wrong. It is what the person feels. I believe in various gods, but I also think that the Catholic/Christian God along with the Hebrew and Muslim God exists in the same plane as the others. 

A friend of mine believes that the “one” God is all the other gods in all the pantheons. I also think that most of the deities that come are like family since I have always wanted siblings and felt lonely. And then, obviously, those who are Catholic and Christian belief in only one God. I believe none of us are right or wrong in those beliefs.

My Faith

I firmly believe religion, faith, and belief should be more personal. I do not think it is right to force opinions on others or even in the non-religious sense of the words. Religion, belief, politics, philosophy; these I think should be a belief, but if it’s shared with others, it can bring you together. I don’t think there should be wars against views such as these unless the belief hurts themselves or others.

Something knows math to be accurate and perfect in almost all cases, while belief is different. We can know faith” to be true in every instance. For example, so many people still believe that Paganism and Wicca are evil and “devil-worshipping.” What I know to be true is that it is the opposite. Pagans and Wiccans love the earth and part of Wiccan law is “harm none.” 

Even with Pagans who use witchcraft, the thought of karma is prominent because if you do something, it will come back to you times three. There are out there who still harm with their practice, but most of us are now using peaceful means of worship and practice. Christianity evolved from Catholics who did not agree with their beliefs is another perfect example. Above all, math is linear, but faith can be various.